i think i have major trust issues....
i dnt trust people to do my work fr me (*nt cos they suck cos i just dun trust them to complete or submit it on time etc)
i dnt trust what a person says shes feeling (*even though it might be true)
i dnt trust my friends compliments
i dnt trust like i used to.....
maybe cos you just learnt the meaning of the word=REALIST
maybe cos this world is full of hypocrites?
maybe cos this world is full of bloodsucking competitors which will "kill" you to survive?
maybe cos the word friend or family turned into just another plain old word
(similar to how the once mystical LOVE evolved into JUST ANOTHER WORD)
mostly becos the people who i once trusted have betrayed the very definition of that word....
like seriously im still gullible la but i just act gullible but theres just some part of me saying "shes a liar/ a cheat, just bullshitting, toying arnd with me"
I think that once i have lose trust in a person, no matter what she does to regain my trust, SHE WILL NEVER EVER get the full 100% believe from me....its not that im paranoid/mean, but i dont noe its just me la.....kinda difficult to explain....
But dnt you guys get the same feeling too?
like will you take the risk of giving your life to another human being, well fr now i WONT
maybe this relates to the fact why i havnt fall in "love" since 2007.........
why this post?
hmmz cos the person i love most and the most dearest and closest to my heart has just betrayed my trust...........dnt ask me who......cos youll just be shocked by what she did and its a deep & long, neverending story of my family life (*which i dont wanna share with u strangers fr now)
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