My Kryptonite

Well, i was having a conversation and a mini game of truth or dare with RAI and FIR
which i pawned both of them in rock/paper/scissor and black or white which we emplyed instead of spining a bottle to select the unlucky one to do a dare or answer a question!!! wohoo

and i asked RAI & FIR this....what do u think my weakness is?

Fir said something so deep, confusing and complex as always, which is just him :
He said that i expect too much from everyone to the extend that it can be tiring to be alongside me.....AND i think too much AND...i make a simple thing HARDER than it is *wow fir thanks fr the ease of you answering that question! i ask you fr 1, u gave me 3 weaknesses!*

Rai took some time before thinking of my weakness *which is a good sign* BUT i think shes just being nice as always.:
She said something like this "Muhammad, you are TOO HAPPY"
I replied: "Okay...im too happy huh, so i must be more sad?"
Rai: No, its just that you are a 'happy go lucky' guy whose almost always smiling, and i know sometime u are sad but u just wont share and show, so open up more...

Well what can i say, they are my bestfrens fr a reason, they know me too well

I agree totally with what they said, and i will try to change, except one!
i dont expect too much from others, seriously...i expect them to be truthful, honest, punctual, happy when theyre with me, respectful OMG MAYBE FIRs right afterall huh?! haha!

I do think tooooo much which is detrimental, but sometimes u just cant help but to do so, sometimes its just soo important that it just keep replaying in your mind over & over agian with the different scenarios and situation...and its ME, get use to it. although i will try to improve and be more shallow...

i agree totally with the i make things become harder than it seems maybe cos i am not experienced wnough in dealing with such endeavours and i just panic...

and fr the last one, OPENING up, its just that i wear a happy MASK 'who doesnt wear masks'?
i just do not want to spoilt the fun, so i keep it to myself fr everyones benefits and so that we can enjoy, with you guys, i dont want to think of my problems, i just wan to be happy and have fun....and sometimes secrets are just meant not to be told...
and the funny thing is the closest people around me wont know im sad, however the people who are not as close will sense it, and i have an explanation, i dont want to show my pain to the closest ones to me..